You may read this and think I am insane or that the grief has finally pushed me over the edge but I feel I have to share this story.
Last night through the men and families of the Company my son served with and I have adopted as my extended family I found out we had [...]
A few days ago I received a message from an Army medic.
Angelia.. I tried so hard not to make memorial day a day for Moms to have to remember. I tried really hard to make sure it was a day their sons and daughters came home to see them, not the other way around. I [...]
Happy Birthday Son.. I really want to be baking your German Chocolate cake and making you chili mac like I had every year for your birthday. But instead today I will visit your graveside and leaving fresh flowers. And as I go on through the day I will try very hard to celebrate you and [...]
Dear Micheal
It has been over 2 years since I have heard your voice ( not on video) and over 2 years since I last hugged you. I know in my heart you knew you were loved. I hope you knew how proud of you I was and am. But I don’t think you ever realized [...]
For the past few days I have been crocheting a baby blanket for a friend of my son David’s soon to be here son. I love making baby blankets and such. But today for some reason working on it has opened the anger and hurt. I wonder what Micheal’s children would have looked like. What [...]
Ok I have despised Westboro Baptist Church for years. anyone who can find glee in the death of a soldier or Marine is just sick in my humble opinion. They have the right to protest and to their opinions but there is a time and a place for everything and funerals are not it. For [...]
I was not going to post this but decided maybe I should. It is a letter to Former Pres. George W Bush.
Dear Pres. Bush,
I’ve put off writing this letter for two years but two events this week have made me see that I truly need share my words. One was walking into the middle of [...]
It’s one thing to hear about or even see pictures and video of something, it’s something completely different to actually experience it. I have read about anti war protest.. I’ve seen the videos and pictures. .. and yes they were upsetting. I have listened to others talk about their experiences at antiwar protest and thought [...]
It’s been two years since we lost our Pokey. I don’t care what anyone says about time healing or it gets better in time, fact is it doesn’t. If anything it gets harder. As I watch his friends get married and start families I am happy for them but I mourn one more thing my [...]
I don’t think I have ever truly said good bye to my son. There was a moment at the funeral when they had put the casket on the hearse and I wanted with every fiber of my being to walk through the parted crowd and kiss it and say good bye..but someone turned me to [...]
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