While many are out looking for that perfect gift for their kid, that they think they can’t live without. I get to buy some fake flowers for my kid, that I’m having to live without. ~ Gold Star Mother Judy G Vincent
I read this early this evening. It’s true. As a society we are running around spending money we don’t have to buy the gift our children “can’t live without” while some of us are living without our child.
Not many talk about the empty chair at our tables. Or the empty stocking hung for our children. We quietly go buy a wreath and flowers and taken them to the cemetery and take a few moments to let the wave of grief and sadness fully engulf us. Then we stand up, dust off our knees, wipe away the tears and go on about our lives. We smile and say “Merry Christmas”. We wrap gifts for those we love. We bake Christmas cookies and we hide the hurt and emptiness.
No one sees this part of our journey because we know it makes people uncomfortable so we hid this part. We hold in the tears when we are shopping for others and for one moment forget and find that “perfect gift” and then remember he is gone. We swallow the lump in our throats when the “I’ll Be Home For Christmas” plays over the store speakers. We watch young families with their children and remember Christmas’ past and hope those young families are wise enough to cherish every memory they are creating.
We truly want people have a Merry Christmas when we say it to them. We want others to create memories and have joy. We aren’t so selfish as to want anyone else to have this pain. That is why we keep this part invisible from most. Why we hold in the tears and swallow the lumps in our throats. I only write this to help others understand that if there is not a sparkle in our eyes and if we seem a little too quiet or if you see us watching you with your children it’s because we are thinking about the flower we have bought our child.